There I was.
Standing outside.
shivering,
smoking,
numb.
senses off,
speechless,
convoluted,
turmoil,
smashed.

And after a year, less than a year,
I realized there was a weight, a heavy
one, all the time in my head, in my chest,
just when it was lifted.
How much can you learn in 2 hours?

My moments got silent. no words,
no notes, no smell. none could relate.

Not-good news. best news. good news.
I need time. time. and time.

Happiness is a life.