Now, it’s the time you find yourself in the road of your life; standing
left all alone by yourself, having no one beside; when looking back,
nothing to find, looking ahead, nothing to wait for you. Don’t find
enough desire to go on. Can't find anything special done. No temptation, no desires,
no hopes! Can't even understand what makes you going on.

You live for nothing!

But it couldn’t be like this. It shouldn’t. There must be something,
sth you can't understand. Some kind of mysterious nature of future.
The fact that you can't analyze the structure of future. Its not hope,
its some kind of hesitation; bein' in doubt.
Yeah, it might be this makes you not to lose.
Nothing else I can add. It's something deep inside you. Just realize it.